Today I learned an important lesson. That no matter how much you think you got life figured out. YOU NEVER DO.
This last week and a half or so has been the most exhausting, rewarding, heart wrenching, beautiful, emotional week and a half of my whole mission. But regardless of what has happened, I am comforted by the words that Sister Larson sent to me in an email....I believe she was quoting Elder Ballard from last conference..
"God's plan is in place. He is at the helm."
When we humble ourselves and realize who is REALLY at the helm of our lives. We can take comfort that every single experience we have is ALWAYS for our good. "...and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou...that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good." (D&C 122:7)
I am not going to go into detail about what exactly I experienced this last week but I do hope that you will still feel the weight of my testimony.
I testify that Jesus Christ is the Only Begotten Son of God. That He single handedly atoned for ALL the sins of the world, and that He also atoned for ALL the trials and infirmities of every single individual on this earth. I KNOW that He did. And I know that through sincere repentance, we can change our lives. No. We cannot change our circumstances, but we can change our perspective. Pain can become peace. And heartache can become healing. BECAUSE of Him. The Power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ IS enough. "And as many should look upon that serpent should live, even so as many as should look upon the Son of God with faith, having a contrite spirit, might live, even unto that life which is eternal" (Helaman 8:15)
Don't let the impossibility of all of this prevent you from believing. Just believe, and I promise you, you will experience a joy that you never could've ever imagined. REAL peace. REAL joy.
Lastly, I testify that God is our very Eternal Father in Heaven. He loves us. And He is more aware of us than we are aware of ourselves. He knows every thought, and He knows every intent of our hearts. So trust Him. He loves you. (D&C 6:16)
I know that through sincere prayer we can communicate with Him, and receive very real answers to those prayers.
I love my Savior, and my Father. More than I can even express.
And I says these things in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
Still smiling!!!!! Still happy!!!!! <3
P.S. In case you are reading this and don't know. I จบ (finish my mission) in 7 days!! What???? I fly out Wednesday, April 20th.....>.<
Sister Rungthip and I at the Water (สงกรานต์) Festival Ward Party!
Me and an investigator receiving blessings! It's a cultural ritual.