Monday, November 10, 2014
The mission life is where it's at!!
Sawaadiikha!!
I am loving my life right now. You
have no idea how happy I am to be on a mission and not in school! The
mission life is where it's at!! This last week has been one of the
hardest and best weeks of my life! As we continue to learn more and more
Thai our lessons just keep getting better and better. Brother Yuen says
that he doesn't even know what advice to give us because my khuu and
I have already set the goals for everything we need to improve on. We are
very efficient with that. As my understanding grows, my love for my
mission just continues to increase.
Language
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The
language is still coming! I just keep getting better and better
everyday! I finally translated Rowland's letter he sent me in Thai back
in June when I opened my mission call. So I can actually read script
now! I am not fast by any means, but we sing out of the Thai Hymn book
everyday in class and every day it just gets faster and faster. I can
hardly believe in. Funny story about Rowland's letter he sent me in June
though. So as some of you know....my Thai nickname is kradtai, which
means rabbit, because I'm pretty much a rabbit lets be honest. Anyway,
in the letter Rowland wrote kaansiiasala khccng kradtai...., which
translates directing to 'Sacrificing of rabbit....', referring to me and
my sacrifice to go on a mission. Well my teacher, B. Chamberlain,
didn't understand that my chxx len is kradtai, so he thought that
someone was literally wanting to sacrifice a rabbit. I started laughing
at him and explained and then he started laughing. It was one of those,
you had to be there moments, but it honestly just made my day. ''It's
the little things.'' As Sister Remington and I always say, because it's
so true.
Spiritual
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Something
that I had the opportunity of doing last Monday was memorize my purpose
as a missionary in Thai. I hadn't up to this point and I realized that I
should probably get on that. So last Monday I made a goal to have it
completely memorized by the end of the day. That was a great
accomplishment to me because I was feeling really off when class started
on Monday evening and it just felt like I couldn't do anything right. I
ended up just going into a room by myself (still in sight of my khuu...don't worry), and memorize the purpose. As I recited it over and over
and over again, I started to realize exactly what I was saying, and how
amazing it was that I was actually quoting our entire purpose as
missionaries in Thai. In a language that I have barely been studying for
a month. Not only was I quoting it, but I actually understood it with
absolute clarity. I could feel of its truth, and it reminded me of the
amazing power of the Holy Ghost. In D&C 8 verse 2 it says, ''Yea,
behold, I will tell you in your mind and in your heart, by the Holy
Ghost, which shall come upon you and which shall dwell in your heart.'' I
realized how profound that scripture is. The Holy Ghost testifies
straight to our soul. It can teach things that we as humans can't teach
each other. I always know when I am feeling the Holy Ghost testify to me
because it feels as if my heart is teaching me something my mind didn't
know. It sounds far fetched in theory, and is impossible to explain,
but when you have experienced it for yourself it becomes something you
seek after. I decided to start reading the Book of Mormon from the
beginning with that mind set since I came to the MTC, and EVERY SINGLE
TIME, without fail, I have that experience. I start with a prayer, then I
begin to read, and almost instantaneously I feel of the truth of
everything I am reading. I learn something every time I study the Book
of Mormon, and not just from the verses I read, but from the Holy Ghost
testifying to me in thoughts.
Challenge of the Week....
1. Write down a question you have about life or about God or about anything.
2. Pray and ask God that exact question, and ask Him to help you receive an answer.
3. Read a few chapters out of the Book of Mormon. (Ex. I love Alma 36 or 2 Nephi 31)
I
promise you that if you do this. You will invite the Holy Ghost into
your heart to testify of things you NEED to know. You will also feel of
God's love for you, and begin to understand what true peace in this
life feels like.
One last thought. I finally
got the lyrics to ''Savior, Redeemer of My Soul'' and I just wanted to
type them out because I love them so much. This is my testimony in a
nutshell.
Savior, Redeemer of my soul,
Whose mighty hand hath made me whole,
Whose wondrous power hath raised me up.
And filled with sweet my bitter cup.
What tongue my gratitude can tell,
O gracious God of Israel.
Never can I repay thee Lord,
But I can love thee.
Thy pure word
Hath it not been my one delight,
My joy by day, my dream by night?
Then let my lips proclaim it still,
And all my life reflect thy will.
O'er-rule mine acts to serve thine ends,
Change frowning foes to smiling friends,
Chasten my soul 'till I shall be
In perfect harmony with thee.
Make me more worthy of thy love,
And fit me for the life above.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pslLsWRPaIk (I found this song on youtube. Listen to it while reading and following the words. It's more powerful that way.
from Wade)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pslLsWRPaIk (I found this song on youtube. Listen to it while reading and following the words. It's more powerful that way.
from Wade)
I
am eternally indebted to my Savior, Jesus Christ. I know Joseph Smith
is the prophet of the Restoration, and that he was a virtuous man of
God. He restored the true church, even the Church of Jesus Christ of
Latter-Day Saints, and it is the same church that Christ established
during his mortal ministry. It is ONLY through Christ that we can return
to live with our Father in Heaven. And I say this is the name of Jesus
Christ, Amen.
I love you all so much.
Rakmaag,
Sister Burbank
Monday, November 3, 2014
One thing we are certain of though, is that when you live the Gospel of Jesus Christ, amazing things happen.
Sawaadiikhaa!
"Someday when you know who you are, you will be sorry you didn't use your time better."
This was the first week without the
Phii Thai's and it was pretty weird to be honest. Quote of our whole MTC
life though: "who done make me ruusxg these kwaamruusxg's." -Elder
Riddings.
Most of you won't understand, but it doesn't matter.
Just know that you really have to get creative when it comes to having
fun here in the MTC. Elder Riddings is from Georgia and just barely got
to Thailand. He is one of my favorite people! Follow his blog and it
might give you some extra insight into the last few MTC weeks. http://elderridings.wordpress.com/
Anyways,
this last week was pretty normal. As STL's, my khuu and I interview all
Sisters in our zone so it was really cool to get to know move of the
Cantos. There is only 9 of us Sisters in total, so we have gotten pretty
close. I'll do updates now.
Language
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We
have started learning script so that is fun to watch everyone struggle
with it. I am so grateful I learned it before because I know what it
feels like to not understand it at all. That sucks! I can't imagine
having to feel like that on top of all the other stresses of being a
missionary. So I am really just trying to help people in my district as
much as I can because I know how hard it can be. Other than that we have
just continued teaching our "investigators", who are really our
teachers, it has been going well and they just keep complimenting Sister
Remington and I for how unified we are. We work well together and the
secret is we just really love each other. That is all it takes. We
taught at TRC again this week, but Wiew didn't end up coming this week
which was too bad. But it was still a really good experience. It's crazy
to see how much more I can say in just the short weeks I have been
hear. It's nothing compared to what I am going to have to know, but it
is more than I ever thought I would know. So that is a blessing. I have a
new teacher Brother Kaosucharit(sp?) who is khon Thai! He was Rowland's
companion in Thailand for a while, and then I also have Brother Thrap
as our teacher now, who was in Rowland's District in the MTC. They think
it's so funny that I know him! Such a small world.
Spiritual
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This
has been an amazing week for Devotionals. Last Tuesday we had Sister
Rosemary Wixom speak to us, the General Primary President, and she was
awesome. She spoke the whole time about the Savior, Jesus Christ, and
how our role as missionaries is to be a witness of Him. We had Devo
Review with our districts after, and the Spirit was so strong, I can't
remember a time that I have felt it that strong. Every single one of us
got up and just bore our testimony about the Atonement and the Savior.
It was incredibly powerful and I don't know if there is a way that I can
accurately portray just how incredible it was. It's moments like those,
that remind me why I am here on my mission. To not only watch the
growth of those investigators, but watch the growth of all of us
missionaries. We don't know what we are doing, to be completely honest
with you. We are all 18-20 year olds. We haven't gone to school to be
professional ministers. We are all just barely learning how to live on
our own without our parents. One thing we are certain of though, is that
when you live the Gospel of Jesus Christ, amazing things happen. Sister
Hacking spoke at our Mission Conference yesterday and something she
said really stuck with me. She said, "We are the message." I am not on a
mission to go preach to people in Thailand about a way of life that I
don't personally live myself. I am on my mission to show people the
amazing benefits of living the gospel. All they have to do is look at my
life and see how happy it has made me. But that isn't even the best
part. The best part is that they don't have to take my word for it. That
by reading the Book of Mormon and sincerely praying to God, they can
know for themselves as well. As wholeheartedly as I do. Read the
Introduction to the Book of Mormon. Especially the last two paragraphs.
It explains exactly what I know, and exactly how I came to know what I
know. There is no other reason I am on a mission than to share what
those paragraphs talk about. In case you were curious.
On
a more personal note, Wendy Nelson (Russell M. Nelson's wife) came to
speak to us on Sunday for Devotional. It was incredibly inspiring and an
answer to a lot of my prayers. I won't get into the details but I will
share one quote I loved from it. The quote is some advice Henry B Eyring
got when he was 13 years old:
"Someday when you know who you are, you will be sorry you didn't use your time better."
That
really stuck out to me because sometimes its hard to focus here with
all of us being friends now. But that quote reminded me that if I don't
take advantage of my time now, I am going to regret it later. That
doesn't mean I can't have fun though. We definitely still have a lot of
that!
I love you all and I am so grateful for your prayers.
Rakmaag,
Sister Burbank
Sunday, November 2, 2014
The Gift of Tongues is REAL....I love just being around everything Thai all day!
Saawaadiikhaa!!!
This week has been so
fast! I can't even believe it's already P-Day again. So the Phii Thai's
left for Thailand today! So sad. Honestly, I am going to miss them. It
won't be the same without them. They are some of the greatest
people/missionaries ever! I'll see them in a few weeks though. It will be
crazy because the 33 Thai missionaries we have right now will go down to
12. Which means we will go from having two teachers to like 5 or 6! All
the attention will be on us. Which will actually be really nice and
helpful. So yesterday Sister Remington and I were called as the new
Sister Training Leaders for our zone. They are the equivalent as Zone
Leaders, so that should be exciting. We now have LOTS of meetings. Yay.
Updates.
Language
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It's
coming really well!!! We had our first TRC (where you pretty much do
visiting teaching with volunteer khon Thai or RM's in Thai for practice)
this last Saturday. I loved it! We taught an RM missionary, Quinton
Allen(sp?), and some khon Thai named Nab(boy) and Phlccy(girl). It was
probably the coolest experience I have had since being at the MTC. The
RM was so much easier to understand, naturally. He served in Thailand
2008-2010. He said he knew President Smith (Rowland's first Mission
Pres) and President Senior! He met President Senior in the MTC after his
mission and said that he is really awesome! I can't wait to meet him.
Teaching the khon Thai was my favorite part of the day though. Besides
the fact I completely embarrassed myself. haha It was funny though. So
Nab looked so much older than Phlccy so I asked in Thai if she was his
daughter. Yeah wrong question to ask. Then Sister Remington thought they
were dating and it got really messy and turns out they aren't related
and are just friends! So after that whole confusing, hilarious situation
we taught them about faith and prayer. It was powerful. We taught the
whole thing in Thai and understood (somehow) pretty much everything that
was said. The Gift of Tongues is REAL. I have never had a stronger
confirmation of that truth. Wiew was also there too I found out later!
We didn't get to teach or see her, but Brother Yuen said we will next
week! I haven't even meet her but I just love anyone that knows the
Grover's, so I can't wait to talk to her next week. The Elders in our
district taught her and said she was really awesome. I feel like a
stalker because she probably doesn't even know who I am, and I know so
much about her, but oh well! Brother Yuen interviewed us after we taught
and said we did a great job! I am not sure about great, but it was so
much fun. I love teaching in Thai. I love the Spirit I feel. I love
learning Thai. I love speaking Thai. I love just being around everything
Thai all day! It is just the best.
Chun rak rian paasaa thay maag maag jing jing. Chun chxa nay phrakhrid. Chun pen phayan waa phrayeessukhrid mii chiwid yuu.
Spiritual
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Now
on a spiritual note. This week was tough to be honest. Something I have
come to love is the importance of desire. Without desire a mission is
painfully tedious. Your brain becomes foggy and your mind aches with the
overload of information. One of the greatest gifts from God in my
opinion is desire because it feels like it's swelling inside you. You
feel like everything becomes less of a burden and more of a blessing.
Around mid-last week I struggled with desire. I thought about how tired I
was. I didn't put as much effort into my prayers and study as I should
have. That led me to start blaming everything around me for my
adversities. That my lack of desire to study was somehow everything and
everyone else's fault but my own. I was becoming frustrated with the
cloudiness of my mind. I lacked clarity. I struggled to learn the
language and focus on anything. Everything in life seemed to come
crashing down. Then I realized one thing. I not only have control over
how much desire I have, but that once I took control of gaining my
desire back, the Spirit of God made up the difference. The small desire I
created for myself was magnified 100 times once I worked to regain that
spirit in my life. The key word is WORK. It took effort to pick up my
exhausted, sleep deprived body to regain that spirit, desire, and
motivation in my life. And not just busy work, but spiritual work. I
decided to simplify, and focus on one thing... studying the Book of
Mormon. The second I committed to read the Book of Mormon from start to
finish before I leave the MTC, is when I felt peace again. I found
relief from that stress. But that only came when I put the effort in. It
seems counter-intuitive to work harder when all you feel like is giving
up, but I am proof that if you deny the natural tendency to give up,
and pray to God earnestly to help you in your adversity. He WILL pick
you up. He WILL comfort you, and show you what you need to do to regain
that peace in your life. Your intent MUST be pure though. You must
BELIEVE he can actually help you or it doesn't work. In devotional
yesterday the speaker brought up Isaiah 55:8-9. I absolutely love it. It
talks about how our ways are not God's ways, neither are our thoughts
His thoughts. He knows the bigger picture. Strive to align your will
with His. Trust Him.
I love you all. Thank you
for the support and the prayers. Hope everyone is doing well and you are
having fun on your cruise Mom and Dad! I am just going to post the
testimony I sent to my Branch President this week (we have to email him
weekly):
"....My testimony that Jesus is the Christ is real. I know He is my Savior, and I know that I could do nothing without Him. I am so grateful for His example, and for His selfless desire to Atone for all the sins of the world. Not just the members of the church but EVERYONE. Especially those people in Thailand. I am privileged to have the opportunity to be one of the many missionaries going to teach that doctrine to those people who do not know Christ, but reflect so many of His attributes already."
"....My testimony that Jesus is the Christ is real. I know He is my Savior, and I know that I could do nothing without Him. I am so grateful for His example, and for His selfless desire to Atone for all the sins of the world. Not just the members of the church but EVERYONE. Especially those people in Thailand. I am privileged to have the opportunity to be one of the many missionaries going to teach that doctrine to those people who do not know Christ, but reflect so many of His attributes already."
Rak,
Sister Burbank
Monday, October 20, 2014
Never have I been more sure of something in my life.
Dear Family,
What can I say? I absolutely love it here. Never have I been more sure of something in my life. This is where I am supposed to be. This is where I WANT to be. I never want to come home. Seeing the growth of my khuu and other missionaries brings me the most joy. Seeing their eyes light up with understanding about the purpose of their life is such a beautiful thing to witness. I love everyone here. We have gotten so close already. We really are great friends. They make me laugh so much! We have story time every night with Elder Magill, Elder Bunker, Elder Slabaugh, Elder Ridding, Elder Webb, and Elder Darby and Sister Remington and I where we just tell funny stories about our past lives. It's so great. Sometimes I feel like everything is just one big comedy act! We go crazy here after thinking and learning so hard all day. It's so fun. Elder Bunker is literally the MOST hilarious human being alive. And Elder Raleigh always creeps in our room, says nothing, and then leaves. JUST like Nate, Dad, and Connor do ALL THE TIME! It made my day.
What can I say? I absolutely love it here. Never have I been more sure of something in my life. This is where I am supposed to be. This is where I WANT to be. I never want to come home. Seeing the growth of my khuu and other missionaries brings me the most joy. Seeing their eyes light up with understanding about the purpose of their life is such a beautiful thing to witness. I love everyone here. We have gotten so close already. We really are great friends. They make me laugh so much! We have story time every night with Elder Magill, Elder Bunker, Elder Slabaugh, Elder Ridding, Elder Webb, and Elder Darby and Sister Remington and I where we just tell funny stories about our past lives. It's so great. Sometimes I feel like everything is just one big comedy act! We go crazy here after thinking and learning so hard all day. It's so fun. Elder Bunker is literally the MOST hilarious human being alive. And Elder Raleigh always creeps in our room, says nothing, and then leaves. JUST like Nate, Dad, and Connor do ALL THE TIME! It made my day.
Thank you for all the love and support and
prayers. They truly are felt and I could never get through these 16
hour days without them. There is no sense of time in the MTC though.
There is Sunday, Monday and then NOT Sunday or Monday. The days just
blend together. I hardly ever know what day of the week it is. Dear
Elders are THE BEST THOUGH. I look forward to them each day. Something I
forgot to mention last week is that my khuu and I are going to the MTC
choir practices. Those are so great. Practices are Sundays @ 5:15 and
Tuesdays @ 5:15 and then we perform at ever Tuesdays Devo. The director
is literally the only reason we go. He is the greatest!! SO FUNNY, and
just SOO AWESOME. He really makes the gospel come alive. I don't even
know how to explain how great he is. That pretty much applies to
everything here at the MTC though. You don't really ever fully
understand until you are here living it, but honestly it is the greatest
place on earth. Everyone's goal is to just try and be the best person
you can and that attitude is infectious. Yes, its the hardest work I've
ever done and I feel cliche for saying that but it is so true. But so
worth it. Yes, I get frustrated sometimes. Yes, the food's TERRIBLE. Yes,
I have bad days. But all that is inevitable. That happens no matter
where you are at in life. Well maybe not the terrible food part.
#Dan&GinasCooking (SO GOOD) But anyways, as I was saying life is
hard no matter where you are. The great thing about the missionary life
is that you are surrounded by good, which allows for the spirit to dwell
here ALWAYS. That makes rebounding from those hard days 100 times
easier and faster. I'm really taking advantage of my time here because
NEVER again will I be so sheltered, protected and surrounded by good in
my life. What a blessing that is. I don't want to take it for granted.
It's not perfect by any means. I could list 100 things that suck about
the MTC but I hardly notice those anymore because of my perspective and
focus. I could literally talk forever about how happy and great I am but
I am going to move on to language and spiritual highlights because I
don't have much time. I decided to hand write my letter first today so
all I had to do is type it up. That's why this is so long. 555
Language
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The
language is......coming. Just the fact that I am actually able to
communicate and understand blows me away. We finished teaching our fake
investigator Phii Pcc and now he is our morning teacher Brother Yuen. I
LOVE HIM! He looks Thai but he's actually Half Chinese, Half Hawaiian,
native american, Japanese, Irish, and a bunch of other crazy stuff. He's
so helpful though. Rowland: Did Rina have B. Yuen and B. Chamberlain as
her khruu's too? I can't remember. Anyway, they still only speak in
Thai so we do a lot of charades but lately not so much. I'm actually
starting to think in Thai rather than trying to translate everything he
says to English first so that helps. It's super hard, but I can bare my
testimony in Thai, and extend commitments, pray and all that good stuff.
I love learning Thai though. It's one of my favorite parts of the day.
Spiritual
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I
don't even know which one to choose. They are so regular and incredible
that I wish I had time to recite everything to you that is going on.
I'll recall one from yesterday because it is so fresh in my mind. So
every Sunday we have Devotional at 7, and before every devotional we
have a musical number. This week a Young Scottish Elder sang a solo. I
can't remember what the name of the song is but it was INCREDIBLE.
EVERYONE was crying because it seriously so beautiful. One line that
stuck out to me was "may my life reflect thy will". Michelle Lewis
quoted that line of the song when she got up after to share about her
testimony of the Savior. I couldn't get that line out of my head for the
rest of the devotional. Chad Lewis, a Mormon NFL player, who played for
the Eagles a while ago was the main speaker. He shared some great
experiences he had on his mission to Taiwan and it was so great. I just
couldn't get that line from the song out of my head though. Because when
all is said and done, that lyric is why I am on a mission. The video
"The Character of Christ" from Elder Bednar's Christmas Day devotional a
few years ago, confirmed that. All the hard work I'm doing, the reason I
am here serving this mission is because I want my life to reflect the
will of my Father in Heaven. Not just these next 18 months, but my
ENTIRE life. "This isn't just a religion, it's the way of life. Just
like the sun touches us all, the power of the atonement extends to all
men." That is something I wrote in my journal yesterday. No matter how
many people deny the existence of a God, it won't change the eternal
truth that HE DOES EXIST. Whether you believe Christ atoned for the sins
of all the world or not, HE DID. Nothing will change that. Elder
Bednar's entire devotional was about putting off the natural man. He
based his whole talk around this quote from Neal A Maxwell. "There would
have been no atoning sacrifice without the Character of Christ." He
later went on to explain what the Character of Christ is. The Character
of Christ is turning outward when everyone else would turn inward. If
Christ was not a perfect, selfless being, He COULD NOT have completed
the atonement. He later very bluntly stated that if you are focusing
your whole mission on caring about yourself, you will struggle. It's
about losing yourself to find it. It's about turning outward when all
you want to do is turn inward. It's about becoming like Christ. That is
the goal. That is my goal. Now I will spend my whole life trying to
figure out just how to do that. I know this mission is the step in the
right direction though. That has been confirmed so strongly to me this
last week.
I love you all so much. But I don't
miss you. I don't have time too. I love being a missionary. I love
being able to think about everyone else but myself all day. I love being
able to study about Christ and just how incredible this gospel is. I
love serving in the Temple. I have never been so tired, but I have never
been more happy either.
Love always.
Sister Katie Burbank
P.S.
Here's a quote I also loved from Bednar's talk. "The greatest convert
on your mission should be you. But it won't be if that is what you focus
on." Yes, it's the worlds biggest irony, but it's true.
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